Good Girl

 

Last night i fell asleep on the lazy boy. When i woke up, my favorite friend was cuddling with me.

She has been an amazing helper lately. She helped me get over the doctor's news about the clinic trial failing, about the fact we have no options left, and the fact I'll be on palliative care.

I am feeling much better than from a month ago.in fact I feel normal. It's like i don't have cancer at all. I hope i stay in this state for a long time.

One day at a time. No need to fret about the future.

I just want to bring awareness. I want to bring awareness to young adults getting cancer, awareness to living with cancer, and awareness about living with terminal illness. I feel we need more awareness.

Anyway, i am so grateful my cat has gotten my through this month. She is my little Angel and i love her. Gift from God.

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